Uff... capek banget ini, ini sekarang lagi di Simply Box, saya gak tau harus ngomong apa... Minggu kemaren bener2 melelahkan, well ya know, aku di ospek seminggu kemaren, bayangin aja tiap hari mesti bangun jam 4 pagi, terus pulang ospek jam 7 malem, kerja tugas sampe jam setengah satu, terus tidur... Dan selalu seperti itu...

Ketika sabtu ini aku pulang ke Malang, berharap kalo bakal dapet sesuatu yang spesial, bisa melepaskan dari kepenatan ini, jalan2 dll. eh ternyata jatuhnya ya ke sini, ke warnet... =(.... sama aja boong dah kalo gini...

Ya, aku nulis liriknya cinta sendiri di blog ini... mau tau kenapa??? I'll tell ya later.. Ntar dah kalo aku OL lagi aku cerita kenapa... hehehehe....

Well, sekarang dah jam 2, ntar jam 5 harus balik ke surabaya lagi... wtf...

So, see ya...

kau ungkapkan kepadaku
kan ada saatnya nanti
engkau milikku satu

ku menunggu dalam bimbang
adakah sungguhnya aku
kasih yg kau inginkan

biar aku yg pergi
bila tak juga pasti
adakah selama ini
aku cinta sendiri

biar aku menepi
bukan lelah menanti
namun apalah artinya
cinta pada bayangan

pedih aku rasakan
kenyataannya
cinta tak harus
saling memiliki

ku menunggu dalam bimbang
adakah sungguhnya aku
kasih yg kau inginkan

biar aku yg pergi
bila tak juga pasti
adakah selama ini
aku cinta sendiri

biar aku menepi
bukan lelah menanti
namun apalah artinya
cinta pada bayangan

pedih aku rasakan
kenyataannya
cinta tak harus
saling memiliki

jujur aku tak yakin bisa
jalani hari tanpa dirimu
namun apalah artinya
cinta pada bayangan

biar aku yg pergi
bila tak juga pasti
adakah selama ini
aku cinta sendiri

biar aku menepi
bukan lelah menanti
namun apalah artinya
cinta pada bayangan

pedih aku rasakan
kenyataannya
cinta tak harus
saling memiliki

hmm... i'm subscribing for a mailing list about tarot...
and here are what they told about the upcoming week:

Hi felix

Have you ever experienced the joy of staring into a clear
night sky, awestruck by the incredible sight of a zillion
sparkling stars?

What about the thrill of seeing a shooting star, for a
fleeting moment, burning so brightly, then ... gone?

Do you get the same buzz I do?

What is it about stars, that evoke such wonderful feelings?

THIS WEEK'S CARD: THE STAR

Gazing at a star-studded night sky is a truly beautiful and
hypnotic experience.

There is a magic and wonder about the stars and many of us
are familiar with the phrase ‘wish upon a star’.

What would you wish for right now? If you were to wish for
it, would you believe it could ever come true?

I wanted to share with you the magic I have experienced by
focusing on The Star card when it has come up in my
readings.

Wishing upon a star is at the heart of The Star card’s
meaning. It is a card of optimism, hope and unexpected
gifts. When this magical card comes up in a reading for
you it heralds a time of more positive opportunities and
happy outcomes.

This card is welcome almost anywhere in a reading as it is
a good indication that your wishes will be fulfilled,
sometimes not always as you would expect, and this card can
bring one or more unexpected gifts your way.

When it appears it can mean you are being too negative or
pessimistic, and it encourages you to have more hope and
optimism in your heart and mind, which is why I asked the
question earlier – 'if you did make a wish, would you
believe it could come true?'

I have wished upon The Star card many times and my
spirits always lift when it appears in my readings. I
recall in early spring of 2002 making a wish to be
given an opportunity to work with the Tarot with as many
people as possible, sharing a gift that was mutually
beneficial for my clients and myself.

It was a big dream and a big wish for at that time I
couldn’t see how I could achieve it, but I did BELIEVE I
would. Then in May of 2002, I met David, the talented
webmaster of Lotus Tarot, and as they say, the rest is
history :-)

The Star card has been a frequent feature in my readings
for most of the last year and I know why: because I have
received so many unexpected surprises and gifts, not just
in money and material things, but also friendships and
love.

If you haven’t taken much notice of this card before, look
out for it now, and when it comes up, make your wish!!
Remember, a wish made with hope and belief can bring so much
more power and magic to it.

Love and Joy,
Alison

Emm... I have a complicated story to tell... Langsung aje versi Indonesia, udah cepet, gampang dingertiin lagi..

Jadi gini neh, once upon a time, there is a boy named Hiro. Nah, Hiro ini suatu ketika naksir berat sama cewek, namanya... Emm... Hikari aja deh.. Nah, masalah utamanya neh, Hikari ni dah jadian tjoy !! Nah.... Masalahnya lagi, si Hiro ini tetep aje deketin si Hikari.. P’tanyaan pertama : Salah gak seh klo naksir cewek orang? Nekat pedekate lagi.

Trus.... Rupanya si Hiro ni ke ge-eran juga.... Dia trus aje pedekate, sambil nunggu waktu yang tepat buat nembak si Hikari.. P’tanyaan kedua : Katanya ga boleh nunggu cewek yg ditaksir putus ma co’nya ya? Boleh aja kan....? Ya ngga?

Trus.... Akhirnya si Hiro yang emang ga sabaran ni sempet kegoda ma ce laen. Sbut aje namenye Haruka.. Tapi, stelah mikir lama, Hiro malah mutusin buat tetep ngejar Hikari yang dah punya co, daripada Haruka yang single.. Trus, Hiro malah ngungkapin prasaannya ke Hikari !!! Gile bener... Tapi Hiro rupanya masi punya prasaan juga, dia ga minta Hikari buat jadi ceweknya. Dia malah mo nunggu Hikari sampai si Hiro bisa nembak Hikari (in other words, ampe si Hikari single). Nah, p’tanyaan ketiga : Mnurut anda-anda yang baca, si Hiro ini gimana seh? Anda-anda skalian setuju gak klo dia nunggu si Hikari?

Penting : Cerita di atas di adaptasi dari komik H2 dan sedikit based on true story of my friend... O iya, si Hiro juga dengan ge-ernya, atau dengan yakinnya, atau dengan polosnya merasa kalo Hikari ne memberi sinyal2 positif ke dia... Alamak....

emmm... cerita diatas asalnya dari temenku.. Dan dia sangat berharap akan pendapat dari temen-temen semuanya.. Tolong kasih comment ya.....
-v2002-

well, another friend are going to leave Malang soon, he head up to Jakarta to contnue his study at trisakti.. Well, what i want to give is just a memorable moment for him.. So, i was joined my friend to arrange a special dinner for him and for "the one who left"...

Actually, i didn't see the dinner myself, but at least i had give a hand here... So, i hope that it would be one of the best moment in his life... I can't give anything else...

I know, that farewell, for some people always be hurt, but if there is a meet there is also a farewell, that's for sure.... I dunno, how many times do i have before i say "sayonara" to all of my friends, especially "one" hehehe....

So, what do we do with this farewell??? Nothing... But we can make effort to make this farewell worthless... How?? just like what i had done.. Simple isnt it???

And you cant take the fact of farewell?? well, thats normal, but slowly you'll be able to take it... I dunno how slow is it, maybe 1 year, or maybe 100 years...

But, one thing for sure... we'll meet again, even though we had say "farewell" till the death reach us...

Sayonara my friends... Success in your future... Let us meet again someday!!!! ^^ Good luck!

Guys, there is no exactly perfectly same love story between two people/couple... everybody had their very own love story, bad, sad, happy, cry, and many more... So don't try to copy what your friend do that make him success.. You wont get success from that way... Trust me...

Every boy/girl you love have different way to get into her... Now, what you must do is to find that way... you must be able to understand it..

And so, it doesn't matter if you failed at once, you would never give up if your love is pure.. If you keep on trying, success is just a matter of time...

But, a lot of people tryin' to copy what their friend did to get success, but many of them success, but are you happy with that??? That's not your true "yourself" isn't it??? so what struggle you made then??? And what does it means, love without struggle???

Well, many stories from love, i have heard a lot of sad story, most of them was bad at first, but after they make a second struggle, most of them are success... Whatever situation you had, such as she reject you, she already have a boyfriend, she won't respond you, etc. Never give up unless you don't love her anymore...

I know that you would feel so down when you guys are rejected, but what i can advice you is that to ask yourself : "Do i want it to be ended like this?? Am i still love her??" and you would find what to do from your answer... So, never give up kay???

And for those who get a success, never dissapoint your couple, remember a lot of people working hard for love....

one last, from our famous reality show : "love will find you if you try"

cheerz... ^^

why do woman is always hard to understand??? Hmm, that's a question that will always last on man minds.. All girls, for you to know, we, boys, are always wondering why does it is always hard to understand what you want... Sometimes you say no for yes, and you say yes for no...

What a girl say is sometimes different with what on their mind and even more different with what they do.. They say no, and then confused about it, think about it for a few days, get so depressed, but in fact they are enjoying doing the "yes" thing, and still say no whether in fact they are sayin' and doin' yes....

Well, a girl who read this post will say "no felix, you are wrong, we are not like that" but if you asked for about a million boys, they will say yes... and again, it's a proof that you are hard to understand..

So, why do a girl is hard to understand???
I think, they are like to hide the truth, they want to be misterious, hiding things from boys... They want to make the boys keep on living in confuseness and live in doubtfulness.... But for you girls to know, we don't like to be confused.... We prefer you say yes for yes, and say no for no instead of saying yes for no...

Yeah, girls, you dunno how does the boys feel ya know... But, we can't do nothing, all that the boys can do is just make a song, just like the ada band (karena wanita SULIT DIMENGERTI, i prefer to change it like that hehehe....) or make an article like this...

We always hope for a consistency from a girl, and an understandable girl, if they want to be understand by a boy...

umm.. nganggur banget neh liburan ini, akhirnya semua kerjaan selesai juga, mulai dari ngedit vcd yerbuk, sos3, sampe kelasku dewe, tapi ada satu lagi yang belum, ngopy cd tuh.... Yupz, nganggur banget, tapi aku suka nganggur gini, tiap hari bangun siang, trus gak ngapa2en, kadang jalan2, futsal di sekolah, ataupun nonton... Trus malem-nya nonton piala dunia sambil ketar-ketir karena taruhan gitu... Hehehe... Untunglah sampe sekarang masih + kok totoanya, jadi sek untung gitu, belum sampe minus... ehehee.....

Yah, ntar tanggal 10 juli dah harus mulai pindah ke surabaya, muales banget neh... Tapi ya mau gimana lagi =(.... Hmm.. kalo gini baru kerasa neh pedihnya yang namanya perpisahan itu...

Yupz, seperti yang udah ditulis sebelumnya saya telah LULUS dari sma, dan alleluya dengan nilai yang memuaskan pula, meskipun nilai UAS nya jelek.. Hehehehe... Hmm, so sad to heard that some of my friends in dempo dinyatakan tidak lulus gitu.. Meskipun aku gak kenal deket sama mereka semua, tapi tetep aja ikut ngerasa sedih...

Hmmmm, pengen banget biar libur ini gak ada selesainya gitu, sebab kalo selesai kan berarti aku harus kuliah... omg... jadi lebih enak kayak gini, semuanya masih di Malang dan bisa deket dengan semuanya seh... hehehehe....

So, buat semua prenz yang abis ini pencar entah kemana, just one message :
"remember all the good things we had together, never forget any of your friends".... hehehehe....

i dunno how will this life go on, and in fact, no one knows too... so lets just do our best and make a better life... =)

Well, today the national exam result is out.. Here it is:

Felix Kurniawan Tirto

Bahasa Indonesia 9,60
Bahasa Inggris 10,00
Matematika 8,00
Jumlah 27,60

"LULUS"

hehehe.... akhirnya target awal tahunku terpenuhi (english 10) hehehehe...
i was so Surprised with the indonesian mark.... hehehe....